Saturday, July 17, 2010

DIAGNOSIS GONE WRONG

My grandmother suffers from Parkinson’s disease.
For a certain period of time, say, 6 months, my grandmother was responding well to the Syndopa Plus tablet we gave her everyday. She was able to perform her ADLs (Activities of Daily Living) without any help from us.
My grandmother also suffers from osteoporosis, so her greatest fear is of falling. We have to coax her to walk more. She often complained of acidity so she was having the tablets Parit and Levosulpiride, prescribed by a gastroentologist from a very reputed hospital.
The freezing attack happened one evening, out of the blue. Grandmom was improving steadily so this was a surprise. She could not move her legs at all. She was absolutely scared and we thought she was having a stroke. Although the attack passed soon, it left her shaken. She did not want to go to the bathroom on her own. We had to be with her for a few days to instill confidence in her but the terror of falling just grew. We increased the dosage of Syndopa Plus but once she had it and the effect wore off after a few hours, she would be left feeling weak.
Grandmom’s neurologist, from the same reputed hospital, when contacted, told us to check the gastro medicines which had been recently introduced. We got a shock when we found on the net that Levosulpiride was caution for Parkinson’s patients.
Mom called the gastroentologist. This was how the conversation went…
Mom: Doctor, is it alright for my mother to take Levosulpiride despite being a
Parkinson’s patient?
Doc: Of course, no problem with it.
Mom: But on the net it says “caution for Parkinson’s patients”.
Doc: Oh, in that case, stop it.
Dear reader, in case your gastroentologist is thick-headed enough to prescribe a dangerous drug knowing fully well that the patient suffers from Parkinson’s disease, don’t let his callousness and indifference make your loved one go through hell.
Sometimes, we shouldn’t run to a doctor for every little problem we face.
We immediately stopped the tablet which she had been having for a month. We were thinking of hiring a full-time nurse. She needed 24/7 nursing because of this godforsaken tablet. Even now, we have a part-time nurse who comes to help her with her bath. We visited a reputed doctor for a second opinion and he was appalled at the error committed. He told us that it would take at least three months for her to get back to normal.
So far, so good. Touchwood… Grandmom is on the road to recovery.

A BOOK OF HOPE & INSPIRATION

The ‘Power of the Possible’ by Auriela McCarthy is a beautiful touching book that inspires you to be more loving and forgiving. We learn that nothing changes until we change. Relationship expert Auriela says, “We must lose the battle of being right to win the war of being happy.”
I absolutely adore this book. The first time I read it, I found myself ridiculing some of the beliefs and notions I had. This book teaches you to change yourself in order to change the ones you love and care about. I felt peaceful and happy after reading Auriela McCarthy’s soul-cleansing writing that I keep reading the book over and over again whenever I feel hurt or frustrated.
“I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain…”
Oriah Mountain Dreamer has written this. So true, isn’t it? Most of us recoil from being hurt or cheated again. Once bitten, twice shy. This book has taught me to be more open to new experiences. To be less judgmental. To be more tolerant. Every time I feel my resolve slipping, every time I feel it’s not worth it, I read a single chapter from this book and it uplifts me.
It’s funny how every line Auriela has written makes so much sense. Almost, as if I knew all this all along but seeing it in writing made me want to implement what she says.
I’ve learnt it’s no point trying to make the other person come around to your point of view. You can only state your reason and feelings and come away. Why, I experienced a situation some time back… My friend had an opinion and was trying to advise me and the first feeling that came to me was one of indignation. Then, scorn. What does he know? And finally dismissal. I knew what’s right. He had no right to tell me what to do. He doesn’t know the entire situation. Excuses, excuses… A small voice at the back of my head told me to open my eyes and assess the situation wearing his shoes. What if he had kept quiet? Would something had have happened? Maybe. I accepted his advice and filed it away for further use. ‘The Power of the Possible’ taught me to listen.
I learnt to forgive and let go. This took quite some time. Sometimes, I used to wake up in the middle of the night and wonder about the people who entered and had left my life… I used to mostly wonder about the ones who left… Why? Wasn’t I important to them? These were some of the questions that plagued me. I felt like throwing a lasso and tugging them back... but now I am starting to feel that it’s better to appreciate the ones who are there right now and be happy that I had shared wonderful moments, with the ones who are no more part of my life, which I would cherish forever. I’m learning to let go of the past.
A very heart-warming soul-searching book that makes you want to live in gratitude. I recommend this book to everyone and anyone… who would want their epitaph to read
“This person cried everyday, but not from sadness,
But because the world’s so beautiful… and
Life’s so short.”

YUMMY THERAPY

Chocolate-making relaxes mom. It helps her de-stress. She calls it her therapy. Hence, the whole family encourages her in this hobby as we all want her to be as relaxed as possible after looking out for us which is one helluva job. Of course, sampling the best chocolate ever made is one of the perks.
You have got to taste mom’s mouth-watering-melts-like-butter chocs… the rich texture and flavour leave you wanting more… almost addictive… The procedure that goes into chocolate-making is an art in itself and mom has definitely perfected it.
The different flavours are uniquely mixed and matched… mint, orange… u name it… sometimes she even mixes white and dark chocolate to tease the taste-buds. Some have nuts and raisins peeking out… tempting gooey centres and chewy caramel coatings… aahhh… heavenly…
My sister’s friends and my pals can all vouch for mom’s delicious chocolates. Seriously speaking, I bet mom can give Cadbury a run for their money…
Mom keeps planning to sell these delicacies she makes but its hard to resist all our puppy dog faces and we end up wolfing down each and every one. Grandad has the sweetest tooth amongst us and it’s difficult to say no to his chocolate-eating races (ok not that difficult…)
However, before you get j… we have decided to not be so selfish… We would love to share with the world the experience of indulging in mom’s chocolates… the best part is weight-watchers are allowed to binge on these...
So, if you want to buy mom’s chocolates covered in that cute wrapping paper, just email us at vinodrita@hotmail.com .
Here’s an end to all worries involving gifts… Mom’s chocolates are the best gifts ever!!!!!

LYRICS OF THE HEART

Just know that u r not in anything alone.
There’s always a place in me u can call home.
That is what m here for.
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love,
If its happiness we’re fighting for…

And after all that we’ve been through…
I know we’re cool.

When u feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on u
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
I know u feel like the walls r closing in on u
It’s hard to find relief
And people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your soul
And it feels like u cant take anymore
Let me be the one u call
If u jump I’ll also fall
If u’d like, I’ll fly away with u into the night
If u need to fall apart
I can mend your broken heart
If u need to cry, then crash and burn…
U’re not alone…

When u mention that u have to leave me
It’s heartbreak warfare…
Once u want it to begin
No one really ever wins
If u want more now
Why don’t u say so?
Just saying your name pushes a nail into my broken heart
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain pain pain
How come the only way to know how high u get me
Is to see how far I fall?
God only knows how much u love me
If u let me live through it all…
I don’t care if we don’t speak at all from now,
Let’s just go through the whole thing now…
Again it’s heartbreak warfare
Good to know it’s not a game
Disappointment has a name
It’s heartbreak warfare.

I’ve never truly loved anything.
If I had u, that would be the only thing I’d ever need.
I need somebody to love
I don’t need too much, just somebody to love.
And I can keep loving u
Lonely was the song I sang till the day u came
Showing me another way that all my love can bring
I can’t stop loving u
My heart belongs to u…




Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Something I read that inspired me

Darkness always has its part to play. Without it, how would we know when we walked in the light?
It's only when its ambitions become too grandiose that it must be opposed, disciplined, sometimes if necessary- brought down for a time. Then it will rise again, as it must.

Time is a horse that runs in the heart, a horse without a rider on a road at night. The mind sits listening and hears it pass.

They say: Speak for us (to whom?)
Some say: Avenge us (on whom?)
Some say: Take our place.
Some say: Witness
Others say (and these are women): Be happy for us :)