Frustration

LOVE… why does it hurt? Why does it ache? Maybe because we love too hard and too deep that sometimes we forget to keep a little for ourselves…

Does it not hurt when the one you love does not see the fact that you will do anything for them?

Does it not infuriate you that whatever you do just does not seem enough?

And here comes the best part… when they know that they can trust you, and know that you can never let them down intentionally or foolishly because they mean the world to you, somehow, when anything goes wrong they blame you for it.

Why can’t they see how much you love them? That you would never do anything to hurt them?

I knew this couple where the lady would be frustrated with the fact that the man would not take any initiative to do anything. It would always be her idea to do something and the man would just follow through. At one point the woman felt that maybe her man did not feel like doing anything and that she was forcing him to give into any desire of hers. Anger followed by tears led her to take the decision of not bothering at all to go out anywhere since it looked like the man in question was not enthusiastic enough. The bewildered man could not understand what the whole fuss was about…

The fact is men are quite dumb :) Simple. It’s not like I am coming up with some new revelation. The fact is men are quite intelligent but when it comes to deciphering a woman’s feelings they become quite clueless. And really… we keep on telling them how to go about it… it’s not like we do not explain the emotions we show… they just don’t get the hang of it and so we women assume that they just don’t want to…

And then more fights and more tears and the woman has to be the understanding, forgiving one (of course!) and peace reigns once more with promises and apologies from the male…

Men. We can’t do with them and we can’t do without them.

And yet there are men who are sensible and sensitive. My dad is one and I respect him dearly. Somehow he always knows the right thing to do. Of course my mom does not give him much to think about… No mind-boggling emotions to decipher there!

Someday I hope to share the same relationship with my partner that exists between my parents…

Speaking of which, how I wish there was some mind-reading tool you could use on a person… Sigh… life would be a lot easier without any pretense.

There would be no need to show how happy you are when inside all you want to do is curl up like a ball and cry. No need to hide what you feel for the sake of others. No masks. No walls.

Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person may not care as much, or at all.